Something that puzzles me, is the existence of gods in this world and karma.
Recently, so much things happen to me and my family, so much that I am really so tired and lost.
My grandfather also passed away shortly after my dad.
Though I am not always with my grandfather and the bond is not that strong, he is still someone that love me and my family very much.
He got involved in an accident that caused him to lose his life straight on the spot.

Then comes the question:
He is not a bad person, why does he have to die this way?

And the only logical answer is:
Karma.

Apparently all those unexplainable are being explained with karma, the cause and effect of life.
So others might question again, but I saw people who didnt do any wrong/bad things get very bad/horrible ending.
The answer to it will be: the life before or last time long long ago their bad karma, in which they don't remember.
So can anyone enlighten me if it is true?

I once asked my mother's "small" master, a monk. If god exist, then why so many of the people are still suffering?
I forgot the whole exact answer, but part of it was that, "If you hope for something, you will suffer."
I told Wai wai over the phone on Wednesday when she called me up and ask about how am I coping.
She was saying that it's chim.

There's another saying, "Everything happens for a reason"
I suppose all these might be just excuses, reasons or even consolations to people.
Till the day when it all dawn to me on the reason, then I'll know the truth.

I forget to mention, I dreamt of his house this time.
Went his house with my family.
Saw on the table a sentosa box which contains a fan.
Sense of familiarity overwhelmed me as the fan is the fan we got when we went Sentosa last time.
A thought flew pass, that he had packed all the stuffs regarding us outside.

如果。。。

对今年的中秋节感到好难过。。。
中秋节因该有团圆的意思吧。。。
可是今年的中秋节，根本都不团圆，根本都不美满。

Random

Last Saturday was spend in Bugis, with my sister and her husband.
The initial plan was to fix up a computer from sim lim square as my sister's husband computer was spoilt.
We went to Guan Yin Temple @ Si Ma Lu first and went in to pray.
After praying, we proceed to Sim Lim Square, where we bought nothing but more Wii stuffs.
A 16 or 8 in 1 remote charger cum cooler set. And not forgetting the very expensive Rock Band Set.
The Rock Band set consist of 1 guitar, 1 drum set and a microphone and not forgetting the Rock Band Wii Disc.
Whole day was spend on playing that.

Sunday was spend with my sister and her hubby again. Reason being I don't want to be left alone in the house as my mom went out to her Faxi in the morning.
Went my sister's house to play Cooking Mama for a while and then went out with them to Lucky's Groomer place.
Saw a few Westie over there that looks like Lucky, Febi, Snowy etc.
Went for lunch while we waited for Lucky to be groomed.
After which went to try the chocolate ice cream from awfully chocolate. Not bad.
After picking up Lucky, my sister they wanted to get a certification for Lucky at the clinic but we spend quite long waiting till we ran out of patience.
We left for home.
I took a nap while my sister and sister hubby went home to her hubby's mom side.
After they came back, I tag along to go for foot reflexology at Westmall.
My first time going, not bad I would say.
Then after which we went home and asked my mom to come my sister house where she play the drum also.

Monday I was on leave. Accompany my mom to buy bee hoon for my daddy's breakfast.
Then in the afternoon, accompanied her to daddy's company. My daddy's company another stakeholder, ah zhi uncle was there. Sitting in my daddy's office, I was amazed and proud of my daddy all of the sudden.
It wasnt easy to start with nothing and end up with something.
Saw a picture of daddy with the Japanese boss taken quite some time ago.
Ah Zhi uncle chatted with mom in the office.
It's just like entering daddy's world.
And ya, it makes me miss him.
I dreamt of Mr Z yesterday.
It's a weird dream. In my dream, I ate something that consist of pork. I can even feel that it taste weird.
What happen in my dream was more weird.
It seems that he wanted to be together again, and asked me about it.
After driving me home, I wanted to sms him saying that I dun need any pity etc but I woke up.

*My sister made a remark about the divination lot from Guan Yin Temple. She said that it's very accurate. As far as I am concerned, I do hope it is real, but I am so afraid...so afraid of the disappointments. Please God, let me believe in your existence.*

What goes around comes around,
What goes up must come down

I dreamt of going overseas to study...
This time round, its Japan...
It's with 2 couples...
And we are looking at Kimonos...which look so familiar to me...
And also, at oil paintings that look amazingly familiar to me too...
But I have no idea...
No idea where I see them before...
No idea at all...

Am I really full of hatred like what Bambee said?

Goodbye w910i

And so...
It just took me less than 1 hour...to trade-in this phone which is full of memories for me.
I first got this phone few months ago, given by someone who I really love, but in the end left me for another girl and wanna lie to me about it...
I was still hesitating when I was at the counter with my sister and her husband.
I asked them , issit bad?People gave me this phone not more than a few months and I just trade it in.
They both support me and say its not bad...after all, broke up already, why bother.
My mom said the same thing too...trade it in...no point and since it always go "hospital"
And in less than 1 hour, I traded it in for 200 bucks at Singtel.

Bye bye my dearest phone...

Ta-dah...!

This is my beloved phone now...yap yap..iphone 3G...

Love it to the core...

My 1st PDA kind of phone... :)

What happen on Saturday was that...My sister bought this phone and since we have the reservation paper, I decided to purchase this phone too...
And then when queueing up, my sister's hubby asked my sister to purchase one more for him.
Reason?Cause he find it weird that we both buy and he didnt.HAHA
So in the end, 3 of us are proud and happy owners of iPhone 3G!
My mom wanted to buy aso coz of the handwriting function(Chinese)

On the other note, I was quite sad and hurt when I saw my mom crying on Sunday Night.
Reason was that, she was feeling kinda sad and disappointed over my bro and she was feeling sorry for my dad for having such a son.
*sigh*
I made an agreement with someone over something.
We'll see if it comes true.
We'll see...

Luv,
wishin