Weird Weird Dream

I dreamt my family went Genting with my brother...

My sister and I look through his bag to found a lot of books, that looks weird, like those buddha books.
There's also a packet of cigarette and camera.
Oh ya, I forgot to mention..He gave me a lot of stuffs for my birthday present I think.
All the items was in a box.
And it was so thoughtful that I felt a wave of happiness.

Dreamt that my Real life brother even wanna see who he is.
Then he also approach him to ask him change the SD card to 5 GB for him.

Weird dream.
I duno wad I m thinking.
Woke up thinkin that it should be a Saturday today, but nope, it's not.

It's still a Friday.

Everyone moves forward, no one should stay where they are or move backwards.

It isn't easy, and it isn't up to us to make our choices.

Yesterday my father wanted to request to transfer to NCC for his treatment.
Me and my sister was telling him the trouble as he also need to see SGH doctor for his Liver Cirrhosis treatment.
The time might be longer, I mean waiting time for medicine, treatment etc..So much longer.
And the reason is cause of?
Money.
Actually I'm not really sure of the financial side of my family if they still have enough money a not, in which I believe have.
But well, I still give my household money etc.

Just this morning, saw offline MSN messages left by zhishi, after which I msned him in the morning when he online.
Funny, the way he describe his ex.
But well, at least I felt good after msning with him.
Yesterday also went dinner with Alfred.
Thanks to them, who keep try to keep me busy by asking me out for activities with them.
We went Dempsey Road coz I wanna go PS Cafe.
Spend quite a while to find PS Cafe.
Conclusion: There a lot ang mohs and rich people.

Anyway, it's quite boring right?posts without pics, photos...
Didnt really take any photos these days...
I think my highlight "drop" color already.
I think I need to go temple very very soon.

Jia you...

The ultimate question

One of the question that I always fail to answer and have an answer to.

"What do I really enjoy doing?"

I miss the past, the memories, the times when I am truely happy and I hope things will improve more fast and maybe for a miracle that don't and won't happen.

But well, sometimes, it's not that harmful to dream a little right?

Had a weird dream today.

I dreamt that I was in his ex's car, apparently being fetched by her.
I asked her if she know we broke up.
She nodded.
I continued to say,"wow, news spread fast, i thought you duno."
She smiled at me.

Then her phone rang and she pick up, answering questions about buying a house at Jurong West.
Then she ended off the call with something like,"ok find one day I teach/tell you."
Then I ask her about price of a HDB is Jurong now.
"Ard 387k".She told me.
"Wah so expensive?last time my colleague buy only 220k like that". I replied
"Yah, now become more expensive le".She replied.

Then we reach the destination in which i duno where.
And I woke up while I alight her car and she waited for her fren to come take the car.

On the other hand, a short update.
Friday caught Dark Knight with Jason cause I got free tickets sponsored by my colleague.
Nice and long movie I would say.

On Saturday, I didnt go temple. Didnt meet Dap or Alfred.
End up going in Msia again with Jason and his GF, Yan Yan.
Had a sumptuous seafood dinner...and of coz, long jam in...
Crayfish, crab, stingray, you tiao, and vegetables.
All for ard SGD15-20 per pax.

Sunday I didnt go anywhere except Jurong IMM for lunch with Alfred.
Had lunch at Ichiban Boshi where after eating, I realise there's a tiny little snail crawling on the lettuce of the softshell crab I ate.
Yucks.
Been thinkin wan to get a Desktop a not.
*Sighx*

Been feeling so depressed these days.
My mom ask me yesterday, "He got other girl le issit?"
I replied her, "Ya"
"He also like your bro lor, 2 time."My mom say again
"Think so, impossible so fast will get GF one lor..."I said.
I not typing out the rest of the conversation already.
My mom say ppl enjoying and happy there and you sad here...

Wad are faith and belief?
Dear God,
Please, if you really exist, help me.

-wishin

AM AND IS GOING CRAZY VERY SOON...

THE EMOTIONS INSIDE...
THE MEMORIES WITHIN...

IS THERE A BUTTON TO CLICK AND FORGET?!

I JUST WANNA BE HAPPI...

Went back to the place you brought me to the first time yesterday...
Except that I went in from the exit instead of the entrance this time.

The place looks the same, except the red red skies...
The toads no longer croak, for duno wad reasons...

Read through my past blogs, past entries on you , on him...
I felt a very serious strong sense of guilt.
He treated me so well...Really so well...
Yet I let him down, hurt him over and over again...
Nights when I'm enjoying, suffering, he's always by my side...constantly taking care of me...

You told me..."This is the picture of the one who treats you the best in this world".
I guess, he is also the one that treats me the best...

And sooner or later...I'll be like him, with another half happily right?

And pardon me for this lousy post, feelin very emo..

Outdated Posts...

Some of the long long time pictures...

Celebrating Daphne, my ex-housemate birthday at Partyworld International Plaza...

Hope that she will stay happy forever...

Wednesday went to catch the movie, "The Strangers" at Plaza Singapura.

Verdict:Suxs...Lamest show ever...dun ever go watch...

Then after which went to Dua Pek Gong to pray...

Friday another movie day...

Went to catch the movie, "Red Cliff" at Plaza Singapura again...

Verdict: a bit disappointed coz it still have a part 2 when it reaches the most peak of the show...

After that we had a meal at Great World Plaza opposite...then home sweet home ...

Reach home ard 4:00am in the morning..tired, thus fell aslp...

The next day, Saturday...accompany Jason wash car under my void deck in the afternoon...

Was awaken by my sister's voice in the morning...ok..noon...Thus i woke up and go get my stuffs...RL and coach baggies XD

Then in the evening time, we went in JB to find Mingli and Samuel at night.

As usual, they brought us to makan...then wanted to go Redbox but was fully booked, thus we ended up go Denga Bay drink...and slack..

Us~

Reached home ard 4:30++am again...after sending Justina, Wai wai home...Tired...

Still stuck in the music, "My hump my hump my hump..."

*I hope you'll be happy forever, and forever have no end*

JB

Had a JB trip yesterday.
Basically stuck in the jam for 1hr plus...

It was a last minute decision, and we entered Malaysia without even the entry fee of RM 2.90.
Spent 0.90cents ringgit and 2 bucks SGD in the end.

Spend i think more than 30mins - 1 hr venturing around JB...looking for place...
and all I know is Kota Tinggi.
Finally found the wash car place...then went to wash car...
Left the car there..then went to eat Ayam Bakar and the japalang food.
We ate till quite late as it was quite full house there...

After collecting the car, was suppose to go dua pek gong...but last minute got things cropped up, thus I was being sent home.
However, a less than 30mins journey became 1hr++ journey again when we got lost again.
Woodlands -> Toa Payoh -> Yishun and finally back to my hse.
-___-"

What a memorable and exciting day.

Was laughing away when someone tell mi in a very happy manner, wah my dashboard so clean already!!
It always take a little bit of stuffs to make pple happi isnt it?
:D

On the bad end, I am starting to lose more n more faith with guys.
All around me, guys are showing their true forms.
Sexual Harrassment, unfaithfulness and etc.

-wishin

Nice night for jogging again yesterday.

Location: Chinese Garden

Though having stitches here and there, but overall the run was good.

Read in a book saying that exercise makes one happy.
No wonder I felt so happy everytime after I finish jogging.

I am feeling very determined to see the world.
But but...
yah..It's time to beautify my resume even more and start practising my interview.

I hope I can do it successfully.

-wishin

Life's little tricks

Did something challenging yesterday till i gave up.

Haha.

How many of you are able to really keep your mind clear of anything or everything and just stone there?

Well, I can't for more than 5 mins.

Or maybe coz I was lying on my bed that's why, maybe coz of all the talking.
Kept hear my family talking, music from here and there.

Shall try again very soon. :D

-wishin

Had an enjoyable run yesterday night at Chinese Garden.

After which supper.

So that brings all the fats back to me again.

Boo.